""Sometimes it seems like I've spent my life searching for the words that will open my childhood for you. It's always the same - even as I'm trying to use my story to knock down the wall between us, I can see myself turning into a freak, my childhood a sideshow."".

"Thus, Micah Perks begins the story of her struggle to make comprehensible her unorthodox childhood at her family's commune in the Adirondack wilderness. At the core of her book lie memories of her wildly eccentric father, a self-proclaimed pagan intent on demolishing conventional boundaries and morality. With little more than a run-down jeep and their newborn baby in tow, Perks' parents set out in 1963 to build a school and utopian community in the mountains.

Their school quickly became known as a place to send teens with drug addictions and serious emotional problems - children Micah and her younger sister would grown up with. Their mother was a passionately moral young woman from Brooklyn; their father, a colorblind artist, a British bohemian who delighted in surprise and trickery and adventure; a man who thought nothing of dividing the commune in half and waging a simulated war or of setting everyone out on the ocean in leaky lifeboats.".

"This memoir combines a moving celebration of the utopian spirit and its desire for community and feedom with a lacerating critique of the consequences of those desires - consequences especially felt by the children. How could such a vision of perfection threaten a child's welfare? The sixties, for many, became a laboratory of hope and chaos, as young idealists tested the limits and possiblities of freedom.

Micah Perks has cast her unflinching and precise eye on her own history and has illuminated, with breathtaking grace and clarity, not only those years of her childhood, but a wide-open moment that has marked our culture for all time."--BOOK JACKET.